Kemarin dan pagi ini cukup lumayan (lebih baik) mood nya!! berhasil lanjut progress kerjain design rumah BSD!!
Mau kejar target semua bisa selesai di hari jumat hueheh,,
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TAPI SUMPAH WHY DO I HATE MY MOM SO MUCH.????????!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so exhausted and always feel exhausted to fulfill her life. KITA SEMUA ANAK ANAKNYA disini just happen to exist, to live her life. harus banget semua sesuai komando dan selera dan preferensi dan cita cita beliau??????? She always think she knows "US" BUT I DONT REALLY THINK SHE DOES????
RIGHT NOW gue hidup menjalankan kehidupan yang simpel dan mengambil keputusan keputusan buat diri gue sendiri aja kayak FREAKIN DIINTERUPSI TERUS??????????????????????!!!!!!!!!! GUE UDAH DI TITIK KEBAYANG BANGET HOW WILL SHE ACT NANTI KALO GUE UDAH BISA HIDUP MANDIRI--LETS SAY UDAH NIKAH NANTI----ewhhhhhh WITH HER SELF CENTERED AND VICTIM MENTALITY, bakal sebawel apadah semua hal mau diinterupsi??? gatau sih I always pray I can escape this situation...
Situasi dimana I am literally 25 years old but I DONT FEEL LIKE I HAVE AN AUTHORITY over myself ........... I cant make any decision for my future self because EVERYTHING NEED TO BE ON THE SAME LINE WHERE MY MOM WANT IT TO BE--paham kan maksudnya? Kayak, Oke You can make decision, but it has to be on my preference, kalau gak sesuai preference my mom, SHE WILL LITERALLY TALK SHIT BEHIND MY BACK ALL THE TIME--LIKE,, CAN YOU JUST BE A REGULAR MOM WHO SUPPORT YOUR KIDS DECISION-EVEN THO ITS NOT ON YOUR PREFERENCE- JUST ACCEPT IT RATHER THAN TALK SHIT BEHIND MY BAck---Grenengin, JULID ALL THE TIME ABOUT YOUR OWN KIDS LIFE PATH.
At this moment Im too lazy to live, too lazy to have any goals and ambition just because you know its EXHAUSTING to have your mom always talk shit behind your back--to always know that your mom being judgemental about every single life choices that against her.
ITS ALWAYS ABOUT HER, SHE ALWAYS FEEL VICTIMIZED. LITERALLY ABOUT ANYTHING.
BAHKAN EVEN SHE DID SUMTHING WRONG AND GET POINTED OUT, She will probably NEVER feel guilty and just think the world is cruel for putting the blame on her. She is so allergic to any complains.
I am so exhausted but its almost impossible for me to escape her........................